Identity Project

Everyone deals with stress on some level or another, and everyone deals with it differently. I am that person who has no specific stress release tactic, and because of this I oftentimes become stressed out over things that seem small to others, but seem big to me. At times I will get so stressed that I become almost non-functional, and this disfunction becomes like a web which crosses over into other people's lives, consuming them with stress just as I have been consumed. The all consuming nature of stress makes it a major characteristic of my identity, and in terms of my most prominent stress, the bulk of my burden has been caused by my decision to go back for a second degree in art with a concentration in graphic design at the age of 25. While being an older student is stressful enough, I put additional stress upon myself by trying to produce what I think is the best of my ability at my skill level. I look at this opportunity to go back to school as my last chance to do something which makes me happy and almost as my last hope. If I am not successful with graphic design then what is next? I can not just keep going back to school. I have to make something work and this will be it. My process of making any art piece is very slow which is always stressful because this makes time management always an issue, this causes me to have little or no time for myself, friends or family. When I am not working on a project for school I have the stresses of work, as I must cope with co-worker who either do not want to work, do not know how to do something, or just want to gossip. These are just some of the main stresses,and as you can see, it is the minor stresses which ultimately end up combining into what I would call the "daily stresses." Permeating through my very being, and manifested in the trials of daily existence, this is the culmination of my emotional weight: the stressed web that is my identity.